Monday, April 28, 2008

Everything Changes

I spoke to a friend of mine about my day today. Decisions to make for this week that will determine my future.
Part of my dream is to travel but with a job I wouldn't be able to.
I can't decide yet if I want that career or not.. need to stay here?

Canada advantages:
Love English Language and Respect for wild life and nature
Love the correct legal system..I am used to it now.
Love the clean air.
Love my friends here now.
No abuse..not permitted anyway.

Canada Disadvantages:
Very expensive to make a living and I am only surviving at that job right now.. unless I move out of this City.
Very cold City.
I can't eat much...not motivated to cook Canadian Food.

Mexico advantages:
Food delicious
Music love it
I would work in my field and make a living and money
Would be close to my family and have friends too
I love the climate
I do love the culture and the great manners well educated people!!!

Mexico disadvantages
System is very corrupted
I don't know if I fit anymore...I've been in Canada for too long!
Have to pay for HOspitals and doctors or Health Insurance.
People smoke all over the place and I hate that!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Love List

What a great Play I watched today. The funniest but makes you think. We create what we want and choose in life for ourselves. We really do.

So, this is my love list:

1.- Someone Religious and Spiritual with moral values
2.- Funny or sense of humor
3.- Talkative but not self centred
4.- Loves dancing and music, plays piano, and guitar and sings
5.- Loves cultures and languages. Speaks Spanish, Italian, English and French
6.- Loves to travel and has passion for life
7.- Has respect for women and supports my thoughts about how to raise a family
8.- Great Lover, sensitive and caring, loves to hug me and kiss me.
9.- Faithful and successful in his professional career
10.- Takes care of himself, clean, fashionable.
11. No addiction to smoke or alcohol or drugs.

Are you the one?

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Someone thought of me

Nice message today!
someone thought of me and made my day!
You just never know when someone is going to call you and let you know that you mean something to them.

I did the same thing to other 3 people! called them and let them know I was thinking about them.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Time to Dream!

What do you really want in life?

Start small, then go into the next step!
My friend from Spain suggested to get a nice place first in order to land a nice job... I said to her that would be backwards and did not make sense financially.

Now I think everything is coming together... first a job, then a car, then...continue dreaming on... what is next really.... nobody knows.... all I know is deep inside my dream is peace within...

Be truthful to myself, to yourself! who are you? who am I? what do I like to do? what do I enjoy to do the most? what am I ready for?

I love travelling, speaking English and Spanish, laughing, making jokes out of nothing, and helping people... in which market? what attracts me the most!!!!!??????
if anything was possible at this point of my life..... I would go with music and teaching culture differences, preaching, counselling! a friend of mine suggested a ship! what a great idea! to do that for a year? sounds exciting! no ties, no worries... what a heck?

1.- So I started with surrounding myself of 5 people I admire: Can't say names...
2.- Changing my environment
3.- Follow your dream

But all in all: LET IT GO!!!!!! and that is the worse and hardest part ever of everything! whatever is holding you and holding me! let it go!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Birthdates...never forget one..even if I forget my hat... ha ha ha

HI to all!
Today was my sister's birthday and I called her, didn't find her... unusual.. but it is her birthday so she must be out.
Anyway just to listen to her voice on the answering machine made me happy.

I went to work, to eat with a friend of mine, enjoyed playing with her kids...tried to teach one of them one guitar chord then we jumped into the piano.... woowow just a reflexion of me when I was young... ever funny !

Then the kids went to bed and we stayed up chatting away about our own life .... and appreciating the precious moments that we had over the weekend meeting different people and talking about things that we didn't know about each other's life.... surprises... Life is full of surprises.... it never ends.... ever beautiful... but if you believe in prayer, pray for us ! for our own health! everyone has health issues... one way or another.... some more serious than others.......we both cried and offered support....

Then we jumped into a different subject....her boyfriend arrived.. had some laughs... then she said to me.... you can have whoever you want in your life... bla bla bla and I said... it is hard to believe ah? same thing that I had said to her a while ago.... believe in prayer and don't worry about your health... everything will be fine..... she was shocked....

See when we are put through though times and hurdles.... we just can't figure out why... and I say that God is just trying to bring us back on track ... I said... frick we were just starting to have some fun... ????? Interesting ah?

Thursday, April 3, 2008 He's tailor made for You

My friend gave me this beautiful song..lyrics and played it for me ..,... she is simply amazing! a lift....a psicologyst, counselling session, sister... mirror... my secret hiding place... without calling her she knows I need her... and same here... this song is hope.. only hope.. she told me the name of the singer but I am so distracted now days with so many things in my life dreams ... that I can't remember... it almost seems that I have Alzheimers but I don't... I miss someone very special and it seems only like yesterday and the moments are just gone in a second... just gone...

The lyrics go as follow:

All this mixed emotions,
Tangled up in pure confusion,
it's hard to let go of the past, but it seems,
easier as time is moving
Well you said he makes you laugh (and he does)
and he makes you happy ( he does)

He sees you smiling back
It is everlasting
and so he's is tailor made for you
With stunning golden hues
and one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it's just a start

And I have seen you everyday,
You've never been like this before,
He's tailor made, tailor, tailor made

So let go all of these mixed emotions,

Forget all your hesitations,
Together entwined inside this feeling,
Feet off the ground, head hits celing
Then whispered in your ear

He is absolutely falling

The words he said are clear
so don't insist on stalling
because he is tailor made for you

Oh sister, don't be troubled
O sister, please be calm,
Cause this isn't, what you're used to, at all,

He is tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues
And one sweet tone to soothe....

I absolutely loved it!!! but who is he?????????
Take a guess!!!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008


Hoy fui al banco y me di cuenta de todo el robo que estaban haciendo durante 10 aƱ estaban cobrando por si me pasaba del limite o por si no tenia dinero en la cuenta y mensualmente eran dos dolares. Tambien me estaban cobrando por enviarme el estado de cuenta otros casi 3 dolares mensuales cuando podria yo verlo por la pagina web y cancelarlo por correo. Simplemente si lo sumas te da una cantidad enorme.... Furiosa lo cancele.... y aun asi querian convencerme por dejar el overdraft.... que le pasa a la gente.. y que nos pasa a nosotros a mi por ser tan confiada....__???/ no he aprendido la leccion......!!!!! ya no debo confiar en nada ni en nadie.....!!! solo en Dios....pero si no confias en alguien.... entonces como recibir ayuda de la gente?

En fin esa fue mi frustracion del dia de hoy. En buena nota... por fin lave mi ropa, visite a mi amiga... recibi otra llamada de otra amiga.. fui a trabajar... y listo....
Gracias Dios mio por este dia!