Well well well, today I started up getting up in a small town close from here and I was at my sister´s house... I had a quick coffee and drove back to my town. As soon as I arrived, my cleaning ladie also arrived.... just at the same time! Great! Mexican Time anyway... it was past 20 minutes the hour we had agreed.
After that I did some running around and went grocery shopping, then to teach at the University.... after that I had supper and had a nap.... then the phone calls started... then I went to my brothers and visited a few of them... saw my great niece who is adorable!!! and the day flew by.... Oh, I got my hair cut again... I love it... I look like a little girl ha ha ha ......
Had a nice chat with a friend of mine and now I am tired again... ready for another day tomorrow..... My head is spinning around several business ideas.... and then again I get paralized by different stories I hear about crime in this country... and every time gets closer and closer to my surroundings.... meaning that just lately someone attempted to break into my niece´s house and the guy died because someone aimed to him with a gun as a self defense... and killed him... anyway.... no pretty stories.... scarry ones...... God please give me light to see clear and understand where I should be and what I should do with my life........your daughter Marilu!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Qué sacudidas te dá la vida!!!!!
Last weekend I lived without water and electricity for almost 3 days!!!
I had guests and obviously I didn´t expect this situation..... you will know that I had to reach out for help whatever I could find it.... went to my neighbours and asked them to borrow water so we could flash toillets.... called CFE and asked them about the problem.... but this situation didn´t ruined our company and friendship..... made it stronger.... actually my car also broke down..... what a heck is going on????
Anyway yesterday was such a nice day .... celebrating a party with my friend Adrianna from University; her husband played guitar and their kids sing the song la ramera !!! I was laughing so hard.... they only are 7 years old and they are twins.....
Anyway, I also ran on to Alejandra my old neighbour from down town and got together, travelled together to Moroleon since I couldn´t go to San Antonio Texas ha ha ha ....
Anyway Lord, thank you for these moments of shaking me up every minute!!!
I had guests and obviously I didn´t expect this situation..... you will know that I had to reach out for help whatever I could find it.... went to my neighbours and asked them to borrow water so we could flash toillets.... called CFE and asked them about the problem.... but this situation didn´t ruined our company and friendship..... made it stronger.... actually my car also broke down..... what a heck is going on????
Anyway yesterday was such a nice day .... celebrating a party with my friend Adrianna from University; her husband played guitar and their kids sing the song la ramera !!! I was laughing so hard.... they only are 7 years old and they are twins.....
Anyway, I also ran on to Alejandra my old neighbour from down town and got together, travelled together to Moroleon since I couldn´t go to San Antonio Texas ha ha ha ....
Anyway Lord, thank you for these moments of shaking me up every minute!!!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Duelos Inconclusos!
Hoy decidí ir a terapia para encontrar el por qué de un dolor de pierna del lado izquierdo que desde hace tiempo me molesta. Al caminar en el consultorio de la terapeuta, inmediatamente me sentí en confianza, relajada, con un ambiente muy pero muy agradable. Empezamos a platicar y en los primeros 3 minutos, ella me preguntó: Cuéntame de tu familia..... Empecé a hablar y cuando toqué el tema de la muerte de mi hermana Mary y mi Madre Celia, solté el llanto. La terapeuta inmediatamente preguntó que me había movido y no era difícil de descifrar, simplemente había sido la muerte de dos seres queridos, y después salió la muerte de mi padre y mi divorcio reciente. Wow qué Terapia!!!! Ella pudo descifrar inmediatamente que traigo un problema de duelos inconclusos...... por lo cual me despertó curiosidad y empecé a hablar más a detalle. (Mil detalles que no acabaría nunca de contar por escrito... o que tal vez no quiero contar....) Nuevamente mi terapeuta me dijo: te voy a ayudar a cerrar con la muerte de tu madre!! (ya que no pude estar en su funeral en el año 1999). Por mi parte pensé .... ésta mujer está más loca que yo.... pero en fin continué con la terapia. Me imaginé a mi madre en su féretro y su carita linda mostrando mucha paz. La abracé y le dije lo cuánto que la quiero y que la extraño. Le dije también que me perdonara por no haber estado con ella físicamente en el funeral por miedo y cobardía a perderla, que no quería perderla..... Lloré y lloré.... y es increíble cómo duele y cómo poco a poco voy aceptando su muerte.... Al final de la terapia todavía tuve tiempo de imaginarme un gran jardín con una fuente y me reencontré con mis padres y mi hermana.... nos abrazamos y nos despedimos... dejando la puerta de reja negra abierta (todo imaginario) como símbolo de que en cualquier momento estarán ahí para darme su amor y su apoyo....... Gracias Dios mío por este día que entre otras cosas, comencé mis clases de Francés....y muchas alegrías también presentaste.... Tu hija Marilú!
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