Hoy fué un día increíble..... en fin desde ayer que celebré mi cumpleaños adelantado, en el rancho con 70 personas entre adultos y Niños.....conocí a alguien que estaba muy guapo pero no hubo química entre los dos. Sin embargo yo bailé con mis amigos y amigas y canté karaoke toda la noche.-
Regresé a casa muerta, cansadísisma de bailar y me puse mi pijama. En eso me habla mi amigo Robin Hood (viudo con 3 hijos) y me sonsaca para salir con el a la 1 am ...el queria bailar... yo quería platicar. Así que nos fuimos a tomar un café y platicamos como 3 horas. Me dejó en mi casa y no lo invité a pasar, no por grosera sino para no dar la impresión incorrecta.
Hoy me levanté tempranísimo con mucha energía fui a pagar el gym e hice step. Despues me metí al vapor, fuí a misa y saliendo de misa me habló Tere mi hermana invitandome a la palapa a la fiesta de Gaby y a cantar. Fuí y a las 8 pm me marca Robin Hood y me dice que el va a donde yo esté y me reí y le dí la dirección pensando que no iría.... pues fué con sus tres hijos y conocí al mayor... ooopppppss no me acuerdo de su nombre.
Me hizo el día..... no me lo esperaba, aunque no habia dejado de pensar en él. Incluso cuando estaba pensando en el fue cuando mi radio sonó y yo me quedé impresionada!
Se veía muy guapo con un sweter largo y no sé hoy me llamó más la atención....me invitó a su casa a comer con sus hijos pero le dije que no porque me da pena. Todos se despidieron de mi de beso y el chiquito de 5 años que es una hermosura no quería por pena o chiviado y su papá le dijo andale hijo.... y finalmente le obedeció a su papi, lo cual me fascinó....tanto el como papá y su autoridad como el precioso escuincle.
A dónde irá esta amistad? no se Dios mío pero la voy a disfrutar y quítame este miedo que tengo de encontrar a otra pareja y de que pueda tener hijos a los cuales yo tendré que educar, amar, cuidar, ayudar, etc.
Buenas noches Dios mío y mil gracias por estos días tan increíbles llenos de emociones. Te pido que salves a mi sobrina nieta la beba y salga de la incubadora!
Tu hija Marilú!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Discerning....
I am absolutely mad about myself today.....I woke up and broke the coffee maker, it slipped out or hit a chair and then slipped out of my hand right to the floor.. then, I have not idea what I did with my parking receipt that I ended up paying tripple the price.
I guess I did too much today.....mark exams, think about my party tomorrow.... chairs, tables.... table clothes, people to confirm....and then, suddenly while I am in that process I call my sister to invite her to see the play The broken Christ... and she tells me that she became a grandmother yesterday but the baby is in a delicate state... so oh my goodness, I took a shower and ran there to the hospital....spent a few hours there... then had supper together and I truly enjoyed it... after that she went with me to buy dispossable plates and glasses for the party....then I went to the other side of the city to my play....I ran into an old sister´s friend...and then I RAN OUT from the play to do a supply teaching....
Now I am winding down.... Oh and my friend Robin Hood called me and bla bla bla bla bla....invited me to a wedding, then a coffee and chatted for about 15 minutes,...... he said he would call later and he never did...Do I care? not really.... I said to him that I am so immune or that I don´t beleive in people´s promisses until they demonstrate that they comply with them.....anyway... after all this day was nice.. I am still alive, looking forward to my birthday party tomorrow.... and life goes on and on and on!!!
Oh what I want to discern or to share is the following steps:
Lost a ticket today , I felt angry to myself for being so disorganized, distracted, and multitasking without concentrating. I felt frustrated and went to my car to calm down, and dumped my purse into the seat to see if I could find the ticket... I didn´t and time continued running.
I talked to the parking lot supervisor and he said I had to pay 49 pesos... instead of 10 pesos. So I tried to convince him and he didn´t give in... he said otherwise he would have to pay for it... bla bla bla... I got frustrated of not getting my way and took a bill of 50 pesos and paid it... and said you guys are disgusting and this is theft.!
I felt like crying....first of all because today and this week I have spent an enormous ammount in stupid and many things. On the other hand I wanted to scream, yell, and I controlled myself.... I couldn´t cry either.....
Operative ways: next time I will put it in my wallet or leave it at the parking lot with the guy...who can I trust anyway....?
Calification: Desolation.... Not to make decisions.....I needed to get out of there and I had looked everywhere.
Direction: Yes, no, or will continue as disorganized and unfocussed?
Origin: Historic: Distractions..... Fact: Doing to many things at once all the time...
Anyway this is a short discerning exercise from San Ignacio de Loyola Method.
Good Night Lord.... I loved the Broken Christ.. Cristo Roto... lástima que no ví el final.
I guess I did too much today.....mark exams, think about my party tomorrow.... chairs, tables.... table clothes, people to confirm....and then, suddenly while I am in that process I call my sister to invite her to see the play The broken Christ... and she tells me that she became a grandmother yesterday but the baby is in a delicate state... so oh my goodness, I took a shower and ran there to the hospital....spent a few hours there... then had supper together and I truly enjoyed it... after that she went with me to buy dispossable plates and glasses for the party....then I went to the other side of the city to my play....I ran into an old sister´s friend...and then I RAN OUT from the play to do a supply teaching....
Now I am winding down.... Oh and my friend Robin Hood called me and bla bla bla bla bla....invited me to a wedding, then a coffee and chatted for about 15 minutes,...... he said he would call later and he never did...Do I care? not really.... I said to him that I am so immune or that I don´t beleive in people´s promisses until they demonstrate that they comply with them.....anyway... after all this day was nice.. I am still alive, looking forward to my birthday party tomorrow.... and life goes on and on and on!!!
Oh what I want to discern or to share is the following steps:
Lost a ticket today , I felt angry to myself for being so disorganized, distracted, and multitasking without concentrating. I felt frustrated and went to my car to calm down, and dumped my purse into the seat to see if I could find the ticket... I didn´t and time continued running.
I talked to the parking lot supervisor and he said I had to pay 49 pesos... instead of 10 pesos. So I tried to convince him and he didn´t give in... he said otherwise he would have to pay for it... bla bla bla... I got frustrated of not getting my way and took a bill of 50 pesos and paid it... and said you guys are disgusting and this is theft.!
I felt like crying....first of all because today and this week I have spent an enormous ammount in stupid and many things. On the other hand I wanted to scream, yell, and I controlled myself.... I couldn´t cry either.....
Operative ways: next time I will put it in my wallet or leave it at the parking lot with the guy...who can I trust anyway....?
Calification: Desolation.... Not to make decisions.....I needed to get out of there and I had looked everywhere.
Direction: Yes, no, or will continue as disorganized and unfocussed?
Origin: Historic: Distractions..... Fact: Doing to many things at once all the time...
Anyway this is a short discerning exercise from San Ignacio de Loyola Method.
Good Night Lord.... I loved the Broken Christ.. Cristo Roto... lástima que no ví el final.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Faith, Prayer and Results
Last week was extremely hard and emotional for me and even more for a friend of mine who lost her husband. It was shocking. A young fellow of 47 years old and no one would suspect he had "Influenza" and this caused also some other liver complications.
At the same time someone showed up in my life ..... and endless story.
This two emotions made me realize that even though I think my Faith is strong... it might not be so. I always try to think everything will go my way... but the reality is that it always goes on God´s ways. No matter how I look it up.
My sister said: maybe you don´t have enough Faith... I realized I don´t ..... I keep being and feeling insecure about the future and that fact by itself.. I think is lack of Faith and it has made me to react and to act in ways that I don´t think God would aprove or even my parents from heaven.
I felt so moved by the death of this guy, who I hardly knew.... but his wife is one of my best friends.... to see that sorrow, Oh my Goodness..... only you know why.....it made rethink the manner and way I am conducting my life... so light,... as if there was many tomorrows... when we only have today!!
At the same time someone showed up in my life ..... and endless story.
This two emotions made me realize that even though I think my Faith is strong... it might not be so. I always try to think everything will go my way... but the reality is that it always goes on God´s ways. No matter how I look it up.
My sister said: maybe you don´t have enough Faith... I realized I don´t ..... I keep being and feeling insecure about the future and that fact by itself.. I think is lack of Faith and it has made me to react and to act in ways that I don´t think God would aprove or even my parents from heaven.
I felt so moved by the death of this guy, who I hardly knew.... but his wife is one of my best friends.... to see that sorrow, Oh my Goodness..... only you know why.....it made rethink the manner and way I am conducting my life... so light,... as if there was many tomorrows... when we only have today!!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Autoestima
Qué se dice de la autoestima? nosotros la formamos o alguien nos infunde confianza en nosotros mismos o nos destruye?
Y si ha sido destruída, qué nos queda hacer?
Y si ha sido destruída, qué nos queda hacer?
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
A calm day so far....
Today I went to my new job in a different University in town. It was wierd, dark at 7:00 a.m. I was so excited to start teaching and using new ESL teaching techniques....
The day flew by and had fun with my 3 different groups. Now I am listening and smelling the rain.
Everything is silence. Everything is calm. I can hear the some dogs far away....
I had some flashbacks while watching t.v. These thoughts were about people who live in Thunder Bay. Oh yeah I definetly keep in touch with some.
I woke up from my nap very tired. However, I must prepare all my week and go to a cvx meeting at Ibero, my ex-university where I graduated from L.R.I.... today I feel another person...totally calm....at the same time excited for what might be coming....
The day flew by and had fun with my 3 different groups. Now I am listening and smelling the rain.
Everything is silence. Everything is calm. I can hear the some dogs far away....
I had some flashbacks while watching t.v. These thoughts were about people who live in Thunder Bay. Oh yeah I definetly keep in touch with some.
I woke up from my nap very tired. However, I must prepare all my week and go to a cvx meeting at Ibero, my ex-university where I graduated from L.R.I.... today I feel another person...totally calm....at the same time excited for what might be coming....
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Signs and more signs...
Well, today I got up, went to a meeting and saw a student fr0m 10 years ago who I took to Confederation College in Canada and now she is a teacher and will be my colleague. I was shocked and loved the idea that I always treated them right.
After that I went to a store to change my gatto blaster and had to play a CD, which I only had English ones... and everyone stared at me and I laughed and said, I am an English teacher.
When I was leaving... someone stopped me and said he overheard I teach ESL. I nodded and let him talk. He works for Aeromexico and he´s a mechanic and 6 of his có-workers are looking for an English teacher... so I gave him my number and asked him his name... Francisco B.
So I thought I might as well do my business cards and went to the print shop and ordered them.
It was about time to start doing something to promote this skill outside of the Universities.
Thank you God for this day.
Marilu
After that I went to a store to change my gatto blaster and had to play a CD, which I only had English ones... and everyone stared at me and I laughed and said, I am an English teacher.
When I was leaving... someone stopped me and said he overheard I teach ESL. I nodded and let him talk. He works for Aeromexico and he´s a mechanic and 6 of his có-workers are looking for an English teacher... so I gave him my number and asked him his name... Francisco B.
So I thought I might as well do my business cards and went to the print shop and ordered them.
It was about time to start doing something to promote this skill outside of the Universities.
Thank you God for this day.
Marilu
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