anyway - martina mcbride

Yesterday

My old good friend Rob invited Chel.. and I for dinner and I hadn´t seen him in about 20 years... it was so wierd to see him again but such a great experience... we were thrilled making fun of the past... I played his serenate on tape and he was singing and saying some words to me and I was thanking him... all this recorded on an old tape .... we laughed so hard.... he kept saying that I owe him a kiss that I have never given him so I laughed again and said I would give it to him some day....

Then my other friend A. came over, he is such a cute guy, so different from anyone else I´ve met... I am not in love... I am just enjoying his presence, he is simply a nice friend and nice companionship to have... right now there is a moving playing on tv called the last love.... so I am going to shut this computer off and watch this movie....

Thank you Lord for this past weekend.... it was such a nice and different weekend. I keep loving life and there is no way I can express how greatful I am with you my God for giving me so much love!

This past weekend

Well I can say this past weekend was a very relaxing one, however a few exciting things happened.

My friend Silvia came over to watch movies and slept over on Friday and we stayed nice in warm.

On Saturday morning we made breakfast and had a nice chat about different subjects. Then she watched movies while I posted pictures on facebook.

After that, my friend RM came to pick me up and took me to pick up my car. We also went to the mall and to the shoe mall outlet. We also went to campestre mall to eat and our friend A. joined us. He was very quiet.. I think he is quiet and shy...interesting .......

At night I went with J.M. and RM and S. told a 50 years birthday party and we danced and sang. I saw my old boss from Hotel Leon and said hello to him and I saw a singer who had promissed me to be a model for pictures of his cd when I was 17 years old and I approached him and said:_
I am still waiting for you to pick me up to have the pictures taken for your cd and he just burst laughing and so did I.

J.M. was very nice, gentleman, not so quiet and had a nice time. I saw friends from High School and we all danced together and chatted about old days....

This morning I went to COSTCO and surprise surprise my debit cards didn´t have enough fundings and I felt so embarrassed about it..... however I canceled everything except the most important things and moved on.... my reflection about this is that I was going to spend on unnecessary things... so good think I had to cancel them.... I have to become aware of all the expenses and income I have and watch carefully every penny.... winter is comming and heat bill goes up.....

Thank you Lord for this day!

My car broke down

What an experience....my car broke down right before I arrived to my birthday party last Friday Oct. 29th. I left it on the street and our friend Sergio, picked Rosa Mary and I up and took us to the party.

At the party were people I was not expecting and I had a lot of fun and greatful time.
We sang, danced and chit chat, ate and everything was very healthy. Nice crowd.

Thank you Lord for this weekend which JM showed me his gratitude picking me up on Saturday and taking me to the grocery store, and also picking me up on Sunday to take me for breakfast and also went to church... and not only that but Chelina picking me up and went to the movie theatre and slept over her place and then she dropped me off today and had a great time with her and her kids.

Thank you my God, you never leave me alone!

Love your daughter Marilu!

Cañada de Negros

Me la pasé increíble hoy en familia de mi amiga!!! y sus tres hijos y esposo. Hace mucho que no respiraba tanta paz. Columpios, resbaladillas, tiroleza, laguito, lienzo, paisajes y paz, mucha paz!

My Reflection, my other half...

I think about you and a smile comes up into my lips. You say things that I had in the back of my mind.

The fear shows up rather quickly because I am used to live the way I do... alone, no one to take care of or do things for... it does take an effort to make a relationship work and to plant the seed and then water it until it harvests......

You definetly drive me crazy.... I mean it.... you act or behave one way when I expect another and all I can see in you is someone very cautious....

Is it maybe that you care about me and don´t want me to fall in love with you? What is it? Is someone else around competing with me?

Is it your past that doesn´t let you move on?

I understand you because my past also comes up many times... I compare you with the other one I had around, I feel unsure of what to do or not do, say or not say....

I think I am compatible with your way of thinking.... I don´t like a few things about you but no one in this world is perfect... I just would love to know what do you think about me? what is in your brain?

God please keep me calm and remind me every day that nothing will happen unless it is your will.

To my other friend!

I just want to let you know that you are taking a special place in my heart, and you may never know it because I am not planning to let it out. Well, you have awaken my desire to become a better person and to have something to look forward to. I find in you a reflection of me ... you said yesterday that I am not finding my place and that is what you might be going through... you are just feeling that way and you think I might feel that way... so I answered yes... I don´t know where I am going or where my place would be...however, I think I do.... I definitely think that I must use my talents towards the world´s benefit and not only mine.... I must go out of myself and be the same given person I used to be. I would give you time, because I think you are worth it for who you are. And I have not idea about your past.... and don´t know If I even care... I just want you to be in peace with yourself and to move on from where you are. To let it go and be yourself.

Anyhow.....as I said, you may never know about this letter, however I have taken it out of my chest and I am very thankful to God for have allowed me to meet you and to learn from you what I have always wanted...Respect! and more Respect! mind you..... sometimes your bitterness comes out and you take it out on me, which is not fare, but I will keep praying for you and to God for your sorrow to pass by ...... If I am not the one for you or you for me... I want to keep you as a friend because you are worth it!

Love you already!