My Reflection, my other half...

I think about you and a smile comes up into my lips. You say things that I had in the back of my mind.

The fear shows up rather quickly because I am used to live the way I do... alone, no one to take care of or do things for... it does take an effort to make a relationship work and to plant the seed and then water it until it harvests......

You definetly drive me crazy.... I mean it.... you act or behave one way when I expect another and all I can see in you is someone very cautious....

Is it maybe that you care about me and don´t want me to fall in love with you? What is it? Is someone else around competing with me?

Is it your past that doesn´t let you move on?

I understand you because my past also comes up many times... I compare you with the other one I had around, I feel unsure of what to do or not do, say or not say....

I think I am compatible with your way of thinking.... I don´t like a few things about you but no one in this world is perfect... I just would love to know what do you think about me? what is in your brain?

God please keep me calm and remind me every day that nothing will happen unless it is your will.

To my other friend!

I just want to let you know that you are taking a special place in my heart, and you may never know it because I am not planning to let it out. Well, you have awaken my desire to become a better person and to have something to look forward to. I find in you a reflection of me ... you said yesterday that I am not finding my place and that is what you might be going through... you are just feeling that way and you think I might feel that way... so I answered yes... I don´t know where I am going or where my place would be...however, I think I do.... I definitely think that I must use my talents towards the world´s benefit and not only mine.... I must go out of myself and be the same given person I used to be. I would give you time, because I think you are worth it for who you are. And I have not idea about your past.... and don´t know If I even care... I just want you to be in peace with yourself and to move on from where you are. To let it go and be yourself.

Anyhow.....as I said, you may never know about this letter, however I have taken it out of my chest and I am very thankful to God for have allowed me to meet you and to learn from you what I have always wanted...Respect! and more Respect! mind you..... sometimes your bitterness comes out and you take it out on me, which is not fare, but I will keep praying for you and to God for your sorrow to pass by ...... If I am not the one for you or you for me... I want to keep you as a friend because you are worth it!

Love you already!

Around the Corner

Today a loved friend of mine said to me that my love is around the corner and left me thinking.... it is a nice phrase of hope.

I wonder who could that be..... really I have not idea.... it could be someone I know about already or that I am going out with or that I am just about to meet.

The reality is that as time goes by, I try to analyze more and more, to think and think more and I am wondering if I am doing the right thing... I just think sometimes that following your heart is the best thing you can do or I can do but because I´ve been hurt so much and so many times I am pretty scared.

By the way, today I had the cutest students a girl called Ale of 7 years old and a boy called Juan Pablo of 8 years old. Anyhow, they are smart learning ESL and very talkative, they were happy asking me questions about my life never mind about the class and I kept bringing them back to the English Grammar part... finally they got their way at the end of the class and I answered their questions about my personal life, but they didn´t end.... so I learned from them to be more curious......and ask more questions....

Thank you for this day Lord.

New ilusion... prospect... guy...

Well I´ve met this guy at a Wedding. He is cute, nice, well educated and great manners. Hard working, funny..... what else can I say.... I am fighting against falling in love this time... can´t afford another heart braken experience... so I am taking it very slowly, very cool and really smart this time!

What belongs to you by divine right, no one can take it away from you......!

All it takes...

All it takes is an extra effort every day and setting goals for yourself. For years I have been playing to be smart and guess what? what I really enjoy doing is singing and not playing it that smart...interesting discovery ah?


I think I have discovered the reason why that guy keeps being around... he is a reflection of myself somehow... should I describe him? Sweet, smart, and passionate about life and many things. Pretty hurt and also looking for love but doesn´t know how to show it and how to let it go....

For the time being, I am certain that this time I have let him go.... can´t waste my time around someone who does not share the same interest than me.

Thank you God for letting me know the hard way about what I am not suppose to have!

Experience during the past 5 days!

Where to start? The most exciting thing has been my course about Executive Successful Program and it is about becoming a new person and re-evaluating my thoughts and values.

Great program!

It will end tomorrow, so for now I will go to bed.

Thank you God for giving me this opportunity to discover new things about life and about my self! Thank you also for giving me the opportunity to see that person I hadn´t seen for 6 months... I still think that he is around me to teach me something but don´t know yet what!???

Good night God!

Libro: Cuando me encuentro con el Capitán Garfio.. No me engancho

_Tengo mucha ilusión de aprender algo nuevo del libro que acabo de adquirir en la Feria del Libro el día de hoy.

Estuve un poco deshidratada y cansada, pero después se me quitó. No he dejado de pensar en esa personita, sobre todo después de ver una película que se relaciona tanto a su caso... en fin, cada vez me acerco más a cumplir mi sueño de publicar mi experiencia en el extranjero y las recomendaciones que les doy a todos aquellos que quieren mudarse a otro país.

Me encontré a uno de mis ex-lumnos de Canada y me saludó muy lindo y presentó a su esposa y a sus tres hijos. wowow qué rápido se va el tiempo..me reiteró que quiere irse a vivir a Vancouver, y yo le recordé que la vida lejos de la familia y tu cultura es algo de mucho reto. En fin, no lo pude convencer, al contrario, el me dijo, ya no les digas que yo estoy tratando de convencerlos. En el rostro de ella noté preocupación al respecto.... en fin. Nadie experimenta en cabeza ajena y a muchos les va muy bien. A mí también me fué bien pero en qué aspecto? de qué estamos hablando? cuál es tu enfoque en la vida?

Gracias Dios mío por este día!