I can not beleive how many times we are so worried about the future and stop doing things in the present moment and enjoying the "right now" because what if in a month.... what if I get hurt... what if this ... my Goodness .... you stop living when you do that!
I simply think that life is too short and it goes by fast in a blink of an eye... you and I, we, must enjoy the present.... if it feels right... enjoy the present... if it doesn't then change it.... but stop worrying about the future.... or gotten stuck in the past? just let it go... cry, jump ... hit your pillow... stump.... scream!!! we are only humans!!!!! take your anger out!!!!!!
Why hold your feelings? if you want to love someone....just do it!!!!!!!
Anyway..... having said that ... I am heading to bed.... simply to have a nice sweet sleep because I know that today I lived to my fullest.... I worked hard... laughed hard... sang.... enjoyed my classic music .... enjoyed my friends company... my chats with my relatives and friends..... and my peaceful place. Live simple, humble, and be Happy!!!!!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
A new fresh start...
This morning I got up looking for a new car, new hope.... new fresh start thinking it only can get better…...last night I watched the movie definitely maybe… it made me think about what life can bring you… if you are not sure about your decision the first time… it means that you shouldn’t do it. I recommend this movie since it does have a true story for me behind it. I personally can relate to it somehow. After canceling my wedding because I wasn’t sure about my decision ……I went ahead with it due to a long story behind it that can sound romantic… and after a year.. I struggle with my marriage due to my religious believes for 10 years… now that my separation is almost all over… I look back and wonder if I had listened to my heart and gut feeling …. Where would I be now? but past is past … all I have is present, not even my future.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
TEC 72
Over the last weekend I attended a great workshop or spiritual retreat and I've learned so many things that I not even know where to start from.
The most important one is that I grew up in a family where there was strong catholic values but at the same time strong sense of selfishness and I always strived to become different from that example I saw 'cause I hated it. I hated the fact that every time I asked for a penny it was denied to me and was given to my brothers but not to the girls.
When one of my retreat mates asked me for a towel (since I had an extra one) well well well, my sense of selfishness definetly did not show up.... but right inside of me it did... and oh boy do I ever hate it. ! I did lent the towel without a question.... and he even brought it up in a group.... not knowing that this is one of my biggest struggles ..... not to be selfish in life......
Do we learn what we see even if we hate it?
The most important one is that I grew up in a family where there was strong catholic values but at the same time strong sense of selfishness and I always strived to become different from that example I saw 'cause I hated it. I hated the fact that every time I asked for a penny it was denied to me and was given to my brothers but not to the girls.
When one of my retreat mates asked me for a towel (since I had an extra one) well well well, my sense of selfishness definetly did not show up.... but right inside of me it did... and oh boy do I ever hate it. ! I did lent the towel without a question.... and he even brought it up in a group.... not knowing that this is one of my biggest struggles ..... not to be selfish in life......
Do we learn what we see even if we hate it?
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Today
I created this account... hadn't gotten around it. However since all my thoughts just wonder in my mind and I never write them or share them with anyone except my close friends, I finally decided to become less selfish and fearless.
For the longest time I have been feeling lonely, but today I found God and myself surrounded by lots and lots of friends from msn, e-mail, in town, accross the world. One friend sent me an e-mail and said that I just have to remember that I have myself and with that it is enough... it hit me.... it really means to me that is not only myself but God the one that is with me.
Through the thoughest times of my life I always think that I have my Faith so strong... and now I feel that it is not so.... it doesn't matter how much I pray, how much I think and talk to God... I still had fear......... Isn't that interesting......I read one line about Faith and it said that when you have it is when you don't feel fear because you Trust in God and that everything will be alright. I kept telling myself that..... hmmm and repeat it over and over again... but there are disturbing signals that don't allow myself to beleive it. God please increase my Faith. Give me more Strength. Love your daughter.
For the longest time I have been feeling lonely, but today I found God and myself surrounded by lots and lots of friends from msn, e-mail, in town, accross the world. One friend sent me an e-mail and said that I just have to remember that I have myself and with that it is enough... it hit me.... it really means to me that is not only myself but God the one that is with me.
Through the thoughest times of my life I always think that I have my Faith so strong... and now I feel that it is not so.... it doesn't matter how much I pray, how much I think and talk to God... I still had fear......... Isn't that interesting......I read one line about Faith and it said that when you have it is when you don't feel fear because you Trust in God and that everything will be alright. I kept telling myself that..... hmmm and repeat it over and over again... but there are disturbing signals that don't allow myself to beleive it. God please increase my Faith. Give me more Strength. Love your daughter.
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